Almost done!!

Well, as the semester gets closer to the end, I find it much harder to find motivation. But, having a super good lesson yesterday really helps. Recital actually went very well. I just need to focus on what I'm doing and everything comes pretty easily. Yesterday during my lesson, I was actually finding the buzz. That was pretty exciting. I've been doing a lot of 'e's during practice and just getting it really all up in my nose. It feels really wrong, but it's a lot easier to sing so it must be right! Now I pretty much just need to memorize my rep and I should be good to go for juries. The improvement I've made this semester is still blowing my mind. I am trying to keep a really positive attitude now and just wait for the improvements to keep coming. My biggest thing I want to work on now is figuring out when to sing in my head voice and when to sing in my chest voice. It's like right around the a, b, and cish area that my voice just gets a little confused, but I'm pretty sure that just practicing will clear that up. Summer is in sight...YES!!!

square one.

Well, I'm finally getting better after being sick, but I feel like I'm right back where I started this semester. I'm afraid this is a vicious cycle. I can't afford to get sick and have to recover and then start all over again. Also, I'm terrified of singing in recital next week. Generally, I'm quite the confident girl. The way I carry myself, the way I dress, the work I do....I love everything about that. However, when it comes to singing, that is just my downfall. I expect so much of myself that it's just impossible for me to please myself. I don't know if it's just from being sick or what, but I've been getting tired after singing for a while. I guess I'm just getting frustrated or something. Not really a good time in the semester for that to happen but I'll work it out. I guess I just need an attitude check and to freaking stay healthy. Hopefully I can pull it together here soon. Gosh I am such a negative Nancy. Oh well though, I shall try and fix that.

Yay

So last week I had to sing in studio and I was really super nervous because that was the first time a lot of those people had ever even heard me sing before. I decided to sing "Vergin Tutto Amor" since that piece seems to be the one I'm most confident in. I was really nervous for some reason, and Mr.Phil even had to tell me to calm down as he was playing the intro. But the song started and I made it through just fine. I kind of forgot everything I learned all semester at first when I started, but after I got into the groove a little bit then it all started coming back. For some reason, I just really crave everybody's approval so I was pretty anxious to hear what everyone was going to say about it. Luckily, everybody's comments were really nice and the criticism was very constructive. That gave me a lot of confidence going into this week. Of course, good things are never going to last as long as you want them too, and I got sick again this week so that's always a pain, but I'm going to start doing a sinus rinse thing and I think that will help an incredible amount. Now that I'm starting to catch on to the buzz thing a little better, my main problem is switching from my head voice to my chest voice. It's at right about a B where I have to change and it's kind of like my voice just breaks there. I don't really have any idea what to do about it, but it is very frustrating. With juries and singing in recital looming upon me, I really want to kick it in gear with this stuff and just have it all figured out, but I know it takes time and it's not that easy. I am super excited for this time next year though, I just can't wait to see how much I've improved because the difference I can tell in my voice from just the beginning of this semester to now just astounds me. So I must be doing something right!