Mental Block.

Well my lesson last week was a little more difficult than I had expected.Turns out, I have some huge mental block thing going on. I feel like I'm straining for high notes, I can't find a good buzz and keep it there, and I just feel bad. I have been really focused so I know that isn't the problem. I also know how to do everything that I'm having problems with, well for the most part, but I just can't get myself to do it. I have been doing so much score study lately because I'm just kind of scared to sing. I just hate what comes out and I think my biggest challenge this semester is going to be getting rid of this mental block. I'm pretty nervous for my jury, but I already know that I'm going to be prepared. If only being prepared equaled automatic amazingness. I know I can do it. It's not a problem with my confidence really, I think I just have a bit of a bruised ego and that is one thing that I have learned is important for singers to have! I know my stuff. I know I do. I just have to get myself back in the zone. I know I can do it. I have a lot of motivation to prove everyone that thinks I don't have the greatest voice ever wrong. Including myself. Well, obviously I don't have the greatest greatest voice ever, but I don't suck. And the sooner I get that through my head, the smoother this semester is going to be. I know I can do it.

seriously.

Okay what the heck. I forgot how to sing. I am not even kidding. I just got done practicing and I FORGOT HOW TO SING. This was the first day I haven't been sick or or anything like that and I felt finally good enough to actually go sing instead of just listening and score study and stuff. I literally could not hit any high notes. I am freaking out man. this is so not good. What am I supposed to do????????? This is an emergency. I better go get some coffee.

Beginning of the year.

So here we are again! It is my fourth semester of voice lessons and holy cow time goes fast. I'm doing my junior recital this year with Jamie and I am so excited. I know we have a long ways to go before we're ready, but I'm totally confident that we're going to rock it. The rep I'm doing for the recital is Deh vieni, non tardar, O del mio amato ben, An die Musik, Chanson d'amour, So in Love, Kiss Me Not Goodbye, Come Ready and See Me, and Vanilla Ice Cream. I am so pumped about my rep. I love all these songs. My main focus in preparing for the recital is going to be getting my soft palate up, losening up on some tension in different areas, connecting my registers better, and hitting the high b in Ice Cream. I don't know if fixing all those things in just a couple short months is actually going to happen, but I'm focused and ready to work harder than ever. So far we've really just ran through the new songs which are deh vieni, o del mio amato ben, and come ready and see me. I'm just so excited. I think maybe I should cut back a little bit because I don't want to end up disappointing myself if I can't come through on everything, but I'm just feeling really hopeful as of right now. So let's do this whoo whoo!